Let me tell you how much I love almost all of the Jewish holidays. The foods. The customs. The stories. Seriously, I love them. I think they are so much fun, and I love seeing my kids enjoy them, too. But now let's discuss Passover. Passover, my friends, is kicking. my. ass. And I truly hate it. Is it bad to hate a religious holiday? I don't want to hate it. I want to love it. I want to feel connected and inspired. My kids are loving it (thank G-d). They learned so much about it in school, and are having so much fun telling me the story of Moses (over and over). And they have no idea of my true feelings about it. They have their fun Pesach toys. We went crazy hiding and finding the afikomen. They love matzoh with cream cheese, so they are happy. But for me? Even if we take the "preparing of the kitchen before hand" out of the equation, I just really do not enjoy this holiday. It didn't help that this year I had to host two seders. That's right. We didn't get invited anywhere, and while I could have gone to a community one, Hubby really didn't want to, and in all fairness, it started really late and would have been extremely difficult with the kids. So we had people here. Probably not the best idea for someone having a baby in a month to host two HUGE dinners. But what really gets me, time and time again, is the food. I hate it. It would be so much easier if I was a meat eater (or Sephardic). But as an Ashkenazic Jew AND a vegetarian, I am really miserable. How much matzoh can one person eat? My diet the past three days has consisted of: matzoh, tomatoes, avocados, cheese, hardboiled eggs, and macaroons. I am very concerned that I am not getting the protein that I need, which truthfully, has been a source of concern for me throughout this entire pregnancy. And while I know that I only have five days left, and then I can go back to my high protein ways (yeah right) of peanut butter and chocolate milk), for now it seems like an eternity away.
So for those of you celebrating and enjoying, Happy Pesach. For those of you enjoying your chocolate eggs today, Happy Easter. And if anyone has any idea how to make the rest of this holiday more palatable for me I would love to hear your advise.
